This time of the year brings out so many emotions. Not just for us but for our kids, grandparents, teachers, and friends.
Summer is coming to an end and that means everyone needs to get back to their normal schedules. Kids go back to school. Mom and Dad have to adjust their schedules so the kids have a ride to and from school. Lunches have to be packed and dinner needs to be prepped. Maybe the little ones are going back to daycare and the older ones are headed off to college.
In our home, Hailey is starting preschool. We were originally going to homeschool but I think it is something that we will figure out as we go. So for this year she will be going to school. Now, if you know me this was not a very easy decision to make. As much as my kids drive me crazy, I absolutely adore being with them. BUT the world does not revolve around me. I had to put Hailey’s needs before mine and I know that she needs to socialize more and be away from me.
Even though we only have one child going off to school this year, it has been bananas. We’ve had to get a physical, paperwork done, school shopping, and orientation. The biggest thing for us are our emotions at this time. I obviously can’t tell Hailey that I’m upset that she’s headed off to school because then she won’t want to go. So here I am trying to be as jolly as possible so that she is super excited about going next week.
While my emotions are taking over me, Hailey is completely fine. She’s stoked about her new Frozen backpack and her Bulldog notebook.
So why am I so afraid?
Because for the first time since she’s been born, she will be away from me. Obviously, every once and a while we have someone watch the kids but it is always under our rules and they know what we expect. This time it will be different. She will have other little people there who may or may not be nice to her. I know my daughter but the teachers and the other children don’t. I look at my baby and she is seriously the most precious and gentle human being I have met. Just like any mother, I want her to always be happy and experience the absolute best in life. But most importantly I always want to be her hero. I want to protect her and guide her in everything that she does so that her heart and mind are safe.
What I don’t think about is that she will be okay. She may come home and have a bad day. Some days will be great and others she will kick and scream in the car. And that my friends is what we call life. She needs to learn that we do not live perfect lives. Just how she may not want to go to school that day, I may not want to clean the house but it all has to get done. As hard as it is to see her struggle, I know she has to go through it in order to learn and progress in life. You may think I’m looking into this situation too much but this is really how I feel.
The fact that I know she is ready means that I have been a great mom for her. She is not perfect but her heart is full of love and that’s why I know she will go and do great things in school. If there is anything in the world that I want Hailey to do, it is to love. Love will guide her in the right direction and will make her standout.
So for those parents who are struggling to let go-don’t. This is the time that the world will get to know your little one. Let them learn and experience things for themselves. Most importantly be proud of what you’ve done. Parenting is not easy and you have made it this far! If you’re anything like me, you’re gonna have to remind yourself on a daily basis why it’s okay to let them go. Here’s to an awesome school year and new beginnings from our family to yours!